Challenge Me!

Some days I don't want to remember that I'm diabetic. Those are the days I resent that I have to take care of myself or die. That no matter how much I want to, I can't eat whatever I want. And those are some of the hardest days to deal with. That resentment can lead me to 'forgetting' to take care of myself.

One thing that helps are my friends and family. They challenge me and I need that. More than I think I realize. I have found that doing something for just me is hard to do. I'm a giving person but when it comes to giving to me, I'm not on that list. So when people challenge me to take care of myself it gives me a 'valid' reason to add myself to the giving list. Is that a proper way to view myself? Of course not. I know that but it's how my mind functions and while I work on accepting that I should be on that list it helps me to stop worrying about being selfish.

Seems rather silly, doesn't it? To worry about being selfish if I take care of myself, but I do. And having friends challenge me helps me deal with that issue while I learn better ways. For now that works.